I almost touched the moon

Chapter 303 You Just Need to Be Yourself

Wen Yiheng looked at the Wuji lamp beside him and asked Wen Song, "Do you know why I have a psychological shadow on the cold light lamp?"

Wen Song shook his head, somewhat puzzled.

Wen Yiheng explained: "When I was a child, there was a cold light lamp like this in your grandmother's room. The light was very bright and dazzling. Every morning, your grandmother would knock on my door like crazy, wake me up at six in the morning, and then turn on the light. Every day was like this, and weekends were no exception. Because I had to get up early to study every day."

"This is a violation of human rights. Even the concentration camps weren't that scary." Wen Song said in surprise, "I really hate this about my grandmother. She always comes into my room without my permission and doesn't respect my privacy at all."

"How could she possibly understand what privacy is?" Wen Yiheng's voice was filled with a melancholy that was difficult to conceal. "I'm over 50, and she still comes to my house and enters my room without saying hello."

She went on to say, "So on the first day you were born, I made up my mind that I would never interfere in your life like your grandmother did. You don't need to be outstanding, you don't need to get the first place in the exam, you don't need to be my pride, you just need to be yourself and do what you like. Even if you tell me now that you want to quit your job at LMU and spend your days drinking and partying, I will support you."

"Thank you mom..." Wen Song said movingly, "I've always just done what I love, and really feel lucky."

(Thanks, Mom. I have always done what I love and I feel really lucky.)

"Really?" Wen Yiheng began to doubt himself, "But you know, I'm really not a good mother."

"You are very good." Wen Song said affirmatively, "I never thought that being a mother means sacrificing myself for my children. Grandma sacrificed a lot for you. For us, she retired early and gave up the opportunity to become the director of the department. But do you really need grandma's sacrifice?"

"No need." Wen Yiheng shook his head and said, "Every time I quarrel with her, she would tell me that she also has her own career. She could have become the director of a hospital a long time ago, but she gave up something for me. I just feel annoyed because I didn't ask her to do that. It was her choice. Why is she blackmailing me morally?"

"Yes." Wen Song said, "So if you had stayed in Hangzhou for me, or delayed your career and studies to take care of me, you might have morally blackmailed me like this, and I would have felt a lot of pressure. Then I told myself that I would never become a person like my mother."

"But..." Wen Song suddenly felt a little embarrassed and revealed his secret, "Do you remember when I was in grade nine, you missed my Parents' Day? We had an event that day with the theme, was ich sein m?chte (what I want to be)."

"What do you want to be?" Wen Yiheng asked, "You didn't decide at that time that you wanted to be an astrophysicist, did you?"

Wen Song shook his head and said, "Of course not. I didn't like physics that much at that time. I said, I was a man who studied physics, but I was a very good writer. I was a very good writer, but I didn't like physics that much ...

(I want to be like my mother, she has many titles, such as Dr. Lucille, Lawyer Wen. She is independent, beautiful, elegant, smart, and rich...)

Sie ist nicht die herausragendste Frau, die ich je gekannt habe, aber die herausragendste Person. Sie ist nicht die Frau von jemandem, die Mutter von Iseylia oder die Tochter von jemandem.

(She is not the best woman I know, but she is the best person I know. She is not someone's wife, Iseylia's mother, or someone's daughter)

Sie ist einfach sie selbst, sie ist einfach Dr. Luccille. Ich m?chte also ein Mensch wie sie sein, nicht die Frau von jemandem, die Mutter von jemandem, die Tochter von jemandem. Einfach ich selbst."

(She's just herself, she's just Dr. Lucille. So I want to be like her, not someone's wife, someone's mother, someone's daughter. Just myself.)

After saying this, Wen Yiheng and Wen Song fell silent. The ward was very quiet at night, without a single noise. Because it was so quiet, Wen Song could even hear the sound of Wen Yiheng crying silently.

"Thank you Ilia." Wen Yiheng hugged her like he did when they were little, letting her lean on him, feeling a little emotional and a little moved, "You have already done it. You are not my daughter, nor are you Cheng Che's wife. You are just yourself, Professor Dr. Iseylia."

Speaking of Cheng Che, Wen Song couldn't help but laugh, "Ah Che is very good. His achievements in freeski are almost unmatched. However, my students only think of him as the husband of Professor Iseylia and call him Master. But he said he doesn't mind at all."

"Of course he doesn't need to mind." Wen Yiheng agreed, "When a person's own achievements are outstanding enough, he doesn't need to care about other people's opinions. Just like if someone mentioned Cheng Che to me, my first reaction would be the Chinese athlete who won gold medals in two consecutive Winter Olympics, not my daughter's husband."

"By the way, Ilia." Wen Yiheng suddenly asked, "Are you and Cheng Che really determined not to have children and just treat your fat cat as a daughter?"

"What?!" Wen Song was shocked when he heard this. "Are you crazy? Damn, you are Dr. Lucille, and you are urging me to have a baby? You must be possessed by some ghost! And our Cece is not a fat cat! It just has long fur, so it looks round, but it is not fat!"

"What do you mean by long hair? How can a European shorthair cat have long hair? It's just fat. I've never seen a fatter cat than it."

"What do you mean nothing? Go and take a look at Zhang Yue's British Shorthair. Her cat weighs 15 catties! It's also a female cat. Our Cece weighs only 11 catties!"

"A 7-month-old cat weighs 11 kilograms, isn't that fat?" Wen Yiheng retorted, "Petty was only 7 kilograms when she was 30 months old. Petty is so much bigger than it."

"Okay, okay, I won't talk to you about your cat." Wen Yiheng quickly stopped the topic. "I don't mean to urge you to have children, and I don't want you to have children. Childbirth is irreversible harm to women. What I mean is that if you haven't decided whether to have children, you must make up your mind, because once you get pregnant after the age of 35, the harm will be greater.

Everything needs to be planned, not done on a whim. You can’t think you are still young and decide not to have children, and then suddenly want to have children when you are in your 40s. That is absolutely not allowed. It will cause great harm to your body. I will never allow it.”

After hearing what she said, Wen Song nodded and said, "Ok, I'm sure we won't have children. Cece is our daughter. If I can't be a good mother, my daughter will definitely hate me to death."

"But Cheng Che must be a very good father." Wen Yiheng suddenly sighed, "If you really have a daughter, I think it will be a cure for you. It's like when I raised you, it was like I was raising my childhood self all over again.

Your grandmother didn't allow me to go abroad, learn to paint, smoke, drink, get tattoos or dye my hair, fall in love while I was studying, or not get the first place in the exam, or eat sweets, fried chicken, or even snacks. But I would let you do everything. So, I feel that I have made up for what I didn't get when I was a child."

"Perhaps..." Wen Song yawned and said, "But I don't think I didn't get anything when I was a child. I did get a lot before I was 12, but after I was 12, you already compensated me for everything. Besides, when I raised Cece, it was like raising my childhood self."

"It would be great if you could think this way." Wen Yiheng smiled, patted her on the back and said, "It's late, go to bed. Good night, mommy's little girl."